DeadlyNana

2007-08-14T02:07:00.000+08:00

Somehow between sleeping and my new job, I forgot about blogging.

Lots to update, yet nothing really seems important because what goes on in my head is actually much more fascinating than what's happening outside of it.

The past week was all about grovelling in my mood swings.

I was stuck in a dilemma of whether to supress my overwhelming emotions or to let go. supress? let go? supress? let go?

Eventually I did neither. since the daunting feelings just went away on its own. oh what a waste of my time!!

And I have been so busy with work I feel like puking.

An ok job. Nothing crazy, but just what I need to get me by while I'm on my way to become a butt-kicking rich woman =D

Urgg.. blogging makes me want to poop on myself.

Guess that should sum up my life in the past few week.

Will be back.

Bye and miss me.

2007-08-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

Eeee. I feel like moving my blog to livejournal.

So tempting.

I wanna lock my entries. kay lah, maybe lock some part only.

Should I? should I? I think I should. muahahaha.

I'm mastering the arts of keeping my mouth shut.

A part of me feel like telling you how I feel. but.. I know it's not wise to say anything. what differences does it make anyway =/

So.. yes.. joanna should just shut up.

You like her, you like her not.

I couldn't careless about it.

And no, its not about him if you think is him.

I think many is going to misinterpret my words. neh-mind.

Anyway, first day of work.. quite ok lah. much better than I had imagined.

For today only.

And I didn't have the chance to lunch alone even if I wanted to.

Everyone's so nice to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... not everyone actually.. but good enough.

Alright, I'm really too tired to blog. had 5 hours of sleep only.

Eeeks.. tomorrow must go work.

Oh. and "zzz" is like the most annoying word anyone can ever use. I absolutely detest people using it on me. It sound so unfriendly and rude can? and worse if the word is accompanied by "whatever".

People who use it on me shall turn mouldy. only I can use it. muahahahaha.

Keep well people ^_^

Forget it, forget it all.

2007-08-10T01:36:00.000+08:00

I NEED A HUG REAL BAD =(

Sigh.

I'm back to emo state, I assumed.

I'm so jealous of happy people.

Fine line between being happy and pretending you are happy. I've decided to erase that line.

I'm going to bust out of my skin if nothing earth-shattering happens soon.

I'm going to burst an artery too.

More than a decade ago, there used to be a real me. The world had it surgically removed. So now I'm just like everyone else. Fake. Empty.

I hate people sometimes. I hate people like I hate onions. But I can't stop eating onion rings.

This is a mad mad world and I'm a mad mad girl. Which actually makes me sane if you think about it.

Kay, tomorrow will be a happy day.

Like real it will be lor.

=(

eybeyb.

2007-08-09T20:30:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so bloody lousy....

I don't know why.. just feeling lousy.

That aside, I'm starting work tomorrow and I think I'm getting very paranoid.

I keep worrying about not having any friends and not having anyone to have lunch with me at work.

Maybe it sounds stupid but I really really really cannot lunch alone. I'd rather not eat at all. like very poor thing right?? u sit there alone and don't know where to look, then must pretend to sms...

CANNNOOOT... I cannot lunch alone. later I cry how?

And I keep thinking my colleagues won't like me.

Usually it doesn't bother me that much if people from elsewhere dislike me, but to work in a place where nobody likes you is very... scary.

How how how?

And I know I will get to know my colleagues after a while but before that how?

=(

And just because you've only seen the side of me where I.... scold people... a lot, doesn't mean I have no fears you know... irrational fears.. but still fears.

Funny... I've never had problems with my previous jobs. why the jitters now?

I don't want to go to work already.

Before I go out again, Happy birthday KPK!

2007-08-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

I'm in such a revolting and lousy mood!!!

No idea what exactly I'm angry at.

Just angry.

Maybe it's PMS.

And I'm gonna KILL SOMEONE right now.

BYEBYE.

2007-08-06T19:28:00.000+08:00

I started off typing this post feeling confused, angry, miserable.

You know, like you have alot to say, but dont know what to say, or who to say to, and end up having nothing to say.

And then you sulk and sulk and sulk until you get hungry.

After being satiated, you continue sulking and sulking.

And then 2 minutes later you get all chirpy and erratic again. and start guffawing and roaring and howling so much you feel tired and go to sleep.

If you don't know what I'm talking about, then you must be new here. coz I just described my daily routine.

So while I'm still feeling chirpy, I better hurry and finish up this post. so capricious.

Actually I was confused and angry and miserable lah. but I'm ok now. like duuuhh might as well don't say right??

Ever had someone important to you just vamoose from you life without a sound reason but only a "sorry" to offer?

How are you supposed to react to that?

I shouldn't be moping over it since I'm doing fine in life now but... I didn't move on graciously.

How could anyone? when you were compelled to forge on without knowing what really happened.

And people just go "aiyah over already. just forgive and forget." if only things are that simple lor.

It may sound immature and totally unnecessary but having a chance to tell the person "I hate you.. " kinda lessens the hatred. But I will never resort to doing that lah.

So I've not totally forgive and I don't know if I ever will, but at least now I get to make up or know the truth. it might not be what I have been wanting to hear, but the truth nonetheless.

And you'd think by now I'd have learn that life was never meant to be fair.

But when a friend, a good person, a perfect buddy of mine have put up a good fight for her love and only to get nothing back in return, I just have to ask why, knowing very well there will never be a satisfactory answer.

Ya I know that's part of life. Ya I know shit happens. Ya I know when I can't fight it, I just have to accept it.

But, I am still sad.

For I see my shadow in hers if you can't tell.

Those feelings that I've successfully suppressed for the past half a year. I don't want it to resurface again. I DON'T WANT!!

I'm doing fine now and I don't want to lose it again. Move on. Yes, I'm still moving on. And I love the people around me who has giving me care and concern, and encouragement (despite it's not so-right morally for some stuffs)

There really is no point in harping on your own evil thoughts and expecting your friend to feel better after that when clearly the only message that will get across is "I told you so.".

No good. I don't like that phrase. What good does it do anyway? To prove that you are smarter?
There are times when we need to learn things the hard way. Or we will never grow.

Maybe only applies to me =D

Enough of my ranting.

NPY is love ^_^

2007-08-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

Just when you think you can finally do up a nice and sweet layout, something HAS to go wrong.

First, the position thingy.

Next, the whole layout thingy can only be viewed using either IE or Firefox.

Now, background disappearing when using firefox. WHATS NEXT??? can't they all come at one go and not bit by bit like that? so tormenting.

At this rate, I might probably end up uninstalling my whole firefox so that I won't be able to see all the flaws.

But CANNOT.. firefox is love.

Arrghhs!!

2007-08-05T18:55:00.000+08:00

HOORAY!!

I'm soo soo soo in love with my new layout.

The previous one looks so emo. I prefer this.

And and, Tina draw me this ^_^

2007-08-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

Hiyeee~~

Eh I'm like quite excited coz I found many many cute backgrounds!!

Nothing drastic, but exciting enough to wanna shout about it.

*bimbotic shriek*

Anyway, shall I color my hair black? or should I get black with gold highlight? or light brown? or red?

Awww.. comments? comments?

2007-08-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

:(

:(

:(

:(

Can someone take me to the beach?

:(

I realize there is so little I can do.

Everything sounds so similar.

Everything seems to be repeating itself.

I don't wanna admit. But I can't help.

Let me be emo for a min.

I don't even know how to help any of my friends most of the time. Can just watch on helplessly as they fight their own battles.

I don't even question why shitty people exist anymore. And why they are the ones who have it easy.

Coz since they are shitty, they are not worth anyone's time to begin with.

But I only have a handful of good people by my side, just don't take anymore away from me.

I want everyone to be happy.

Please.

2007-08-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

wesley says:
let me tell u a story
wesley says:
wanna listen ?
joannaa. i tried to be me. says:
okays.
wesley says:
there's this boy A , he was dumped by this girl A .
wesley says:
sad and emo .
wesley says:
and this girl B was hurt in relationship too, like boy A .
wesley says:
then dont know what happen , they watch this movie together .
wesley says:
no more emo ever after
wesley says:
The End .

There's a hidden meaning behind it if you are not as dumb as me.

Wesley u this.. @^#*@&^#@&#!

2007-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

MIA coz I gotta take a break from everything. I feel so dead.

Fuck.

I won't say guys are flirts. really.

I think SOME are way beyond being labeled as flirts already.

Haven't got the foggiest idea why people will want to get into relationships if they don't want to commit.

First, you got guys with gfs who still go on street and eye on other girls when their gfs are right beside them.

and then you got guys who claim that they love their gf till oh so deeply and madly. *poof* the next moment you realize anything.. the guy is already with another girl.

I won't say I hate you. But I don't think I still see you the same way I used to.

Finally, grouchy irritating conniving fucking irritating guys should eat shit.

Wimps also.

I think snags also sometimes.

Tie them all up and burn their asses.

Not in a good mood.

And it's NOT pms.

Don't make me burn you also.

Bloody people.

I guess I get unreasonably mad about a lot of stupid things that don't really matter. This is what happens when you have too much time on your hands and your mind starts having all these stupid, innane, weird thoughts.

Don't feel like blogging already.

Bye.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

I forget to blog bout this.

38 years ago?????!!!

HOW CANNN?!

2007-07-30T02:29:00.000+08:00

一天过一天明天再见
这是你每次说的一直都没有改变
你的无奈我知道你的心已不在
放开这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

No hidden meaning.

I just think this song is superb nice.

Nights folks.

2007-07-26T16:04:00.000+08:00

Hello ^_^

Rough week.

I'm so tired.

Why is everything like soooo pack this week?

Why ah? why ah?

PPCM pop quiz.

English mock test.

Play project.

FP project.

HMS day.

AHHHHHHHHH~

LEI SI WO LE!

Energy level left is 20% at most. although I stay home a lot, walking up and down the stairs uses up 17% of that. while the remaining 3% is used on typing, gaming and eating.

Meaning?

I have totally no more energy left for other shits.

So poor thinggggg =(

Anyway, check this out.

Then,

Boy meets girl.
Boy fall in love with girl.
Boy and girl live happily ever after.

Now,

Boy search pretty girl in friendster.
Boy adds girl.
Boy and girl live happily NEVER after.

Guys... tsktsk.

Kay, pick-chahs tomorrow.

Byeeeee world.

2007-07-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

The EXTREMELY DELICIOUS Moo-moo sweet. hah.

People go buy ok? at 888 plaza =D

Super overdue video.

Byeeeeee.

2007-07-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Lots and lots of pick-chahs.

-------------------

No more =D

Awww~

I seriously, seriously need to go on diet!

This can't carry on man... nooooooo wayyyyy =(

Spiderpig, spiderpig!! (aha! I think only one person know what is this)

Nightss worldddd.

2007-07-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why am I so suay????????

It's not about being pessimistic. not about wallowing in self-pity. not about imagining the worst.

It's entirely about being plain unlucky.

I don't even wanna talk about it for fear of jinx-ing it further. see what suayness has done to me??? it has turned me into some superstitious freak.

Should I start buying some kinda crystal and put it under my pillow or something?

You know what's worse than being unlucky? having people tell you "count your blessings. you have no finger he has no hand. worse."

Stop telling me to compare myself with those worse off. even if whoever loses his whole head I still will be upset over my lost finger what.

And don't compare my situation with a total stranger's. why should I care if he is better off or worse off. I wouldn't even care if he dies.

Most ridiculous. "stop whining. think of those tsunami/ earthquake/typhoon victims."

I feel bad for them, really. but things wont get better for them just because I stop whining.

2 totally different issues leh.

Please can?

These are the most annoying people. cant even let you complain and grumble in peace. have to spoil all the fun by "reminding" you that life-is-still-oh-so-beautiful.

Your life is beautiful doesn't mean everyone else's is too you know. you can have so much hope and love for the world but accept the fact that not everyone can or want to do that.

Why must forrrcccceeeee people to be positive and all?? why why why???

let me be.

so suay.

*grumbles*

Kay, I need to get to bed NOW! My eyes are swollen.

Suayness x100000

Nights world.

*Joanna can do CRAZY!!! coz mr ~~pro JH~~ taught me to

2007-07-18T16:07:00.000+08:00

I felt terrible with the hallucination. It got worse.

Half the time I thought it was good.. the other half of the time it just leaves me feeling extremely bad.

Howwwwwwww?

Ah.. sometimes I hate my life.. and sometimes I just fall in love with it all over again.

And when does that happen? when I realize there are millions out there who are as miserable as I am. wahahah.

I feel like dying suddenly. but I cant. because my life has already ended long ago. so I'm actually living on borrowed time. and there's no way I can die when I'm supposed to be dead, no?

All I want is to be content. So why is it the one thing we want most out of life is usually the hardest for us to achieve?

I feel like I'm never going to be happy again.

And ah.. I suspect myself of having an extreme and irrational distrust of others. in short, paranoia. but I like it long so yeah, its an extreme irrational distrust of others.

I want to believe what people say. and I want to trust. but I can't help doubting. and after a while I'll try to find loopholes to prove that that person hasn't been truthful.

What the hell is wrong with me??!

So free might as well do something constructive right? but nooooo!! joanna always has to be different and I don't know why.

I can't stop sighing over this.

Sometimes I think it would be better if I'm stupid.

Oh wait I think that has already been proven hahahahaha.

tsk tsk tsk.... I should stop putting myself down like that.

I need a knight in shining armour.

Actually, no. I'm no princess. so I'm not looking for a knight. oh please I don't even believe in fairy tales.

So... I need a sugar daddy hahahha.

Oh someone help my shrivelled brain.

I'm like extremely ultra duper super BORED now!

Sucha wonderful evening it is and I'm spending it at home?! somemore its with my stupid lousy computer with no game loaded. boohooo.

T_T

I think I'm going to die. bye. and miss me.

2007-07-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

5566 - xu meng zhe look alike.

Seriously METRO should start considering changing away the last model.

My new bf. SHUAI HOR? =D

I HATE MY HAIR!

=(

Always like that one leh... cut already then regret.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

*no face*

BYE BYE.

2007-07-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

Bloody hell.

I click the wrong button on the web.. my taggy messagessssss!!!

Wtfwtfwtf.

2007-07-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

Sarahhhhh tagged me to do the 10 weird things quiz again.

She wrote in her blog stating that I WON'T DO! But... I shall re-post it for her sake lah(a prove that I did it kay. hah!)

Here I go,
1. I love to sing and I sing everywhere I go. Even in the lift(sometimes) X=
2. I like to be alone when I'm super down.
3. I only share my feelings when I feel like sharing.
4. I love shopping even when I'm broke.
5. I drink bbt(especially mango sunrise) from NP almost everyday w/o fail.
6. I can't stay angry for more than 24hrs -___-
7. I smile and laugh about almost everything that people find me crazy.
8. I love to take pictures but I hate looking at it.
9. I cry super easily.
10. I love to sleep and I can sleep as long as 16hrs. HAHAHA!! Thats 2/3 day gone.

DONE!

Copy and paste is a easy job =D

Kay, I'm so gonna skip school tomorrow. heh.

Byeeeeee world.

2007-07-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

Got this quiz from Jo and Syaz to see how well people know me.

Those who pass will get a present. For those who don't, don't let me catch you lurking around my blog ever again!!

K lah not fair since I hardly let people know what I'm really like.

But just for fun.. go go go! go try it.

2007-07-13T16:36:00.000+08:00

TGIF! the past few days was good I assumed..

Caught Harry Potter sneak preview on wednesday.

CDEV project down.

Ended school early becoz it's odd week.

Not much of emo nemo stuffs going on.

Overall.. I'm just in my la-la mood.

~~~~~~~~

Men are like rubber band?

When a man loves a woman, periodically he needs to pull away before he can get closer.

It's a natural cycle?

A woman pull back becoz she feels that the man she loves couldn't understand her feeling, when she has been hurt and is afraid of being hurt again, or when he has done something wrong and disappointed her.

Certainly a man may pull away becoz of similar reasons, but he will also pull away even if she has done nothing wrong. He may love and trust her, and then suddenly he begins to pull away.

A man pulls away to fulfill his need for independence or autonomy. If a man does not have the opportunity to pull away, he never gets a chance to feel his strong desire to be close.

Women, however, couldn't understand that this is a part of men intimacy cycle.

When a man starts to pull away without any explanation, woman start to panic and run after him.

She thinks she has done something wrong and has turned him off..she imagines he is expecting her to reestablish intimacy.. she is afraid he will never come back.

To make the matters worse, she feels powerless to get him back because she doesn't know what turns him off.

Often, she will demand him to "talk". However, he doesn't seems to have the reason to "talk". He find it strange that they have to "talk" when he did nothing wrong.

As he continue to pull away, woman mistakenly concludes that he doesn't want to talk or that he doesn't care for her.

Woman easily assume the guy didn't love her becoz he is distancing himself.

Woman fails to see that when a man pulls away, it is not becoz he does not want to talk. Instead, he needs some time alone; time to be with himself when he is not responsible for anyone else.

When a man is pulling away, let him be. After some time, he will return.

~~~~~~~~

Women are like waves?

When she is feeling really good, she will reach a peak, but then suddenly her mood may change and her wave crashes down.

When a woman's wave rises she feels she has an abundance of love to give, but when it falls she feels her inner emptiness and needs to be filled up with love.

A woman's self-esteem rises and falls like a wave. when she hits bottom, it is time for emotional housecleaning.

Men fails to see that women have to go through the rising and falling just like how men have to go through the pull back.

A man assumes that her sudden change of mood is based solely on his behaviour. When she is happy he take credits, but when she is unhappy he also feels responsible. He may feel extremely frustrated because he doesn't know how to make things better. One minute she seems happy, the next minute she is unhappy.

Men fails to recognise that women are different from them.

Men being men, they start to put on their "fix-it-all" cap and try to fix the problem. They assume that if they provide the woman with solutions to the problems and actually solve it, they will be happy. In addition, they try to show women reasons on why they shouldn't be upset.

They forgot that women need to talk to feel better.

A man can provide a woman with thousands of solutions but she still feels down. However, a woman can talk to another woman about her problem and feels better.

Woman doesn't need to solve the problems to feel happy. All they need is someone who can listen to them.

When a woman is on the upswing she can be fulfilled with what she has. But on the downswing she then will become aware of what she is missing.

When she is feeling good she is capable of seeing and responding to the good things in her life. But when she is crashing, her loving vision becomes cloudy, and she reacts more to what is missing in her life.

~~~~~~~~~

Go read the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus".. kind of interesting lah.

I actually laugh when I'm reading.

Quite true.

Kay, show time =D

Byeeeeeeee.

2007-07-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

A mixtures of many many different emotions.

I'm so... stone now.. don't know what am I typing...

2007-07-09T01:05:00.000+08:00

This will take me eternity.... *yawns*

Look at the right side one.. NOT THE LEFT!!

friday...

BJ family ^_^

tuesday...

My cheerlead buddy =D

monday...

Okay, no more.

Nights world =D

2007-07-08T15:01:00.000+08:00

Whoever that says poly life is slacking should go and find a wall and bang at it hard.

WHICH PART OF IT LOOKING SLACKING TO YOU ALL? Tell me lah~

IT'S NOT SLACKING AT ALL LOR!

=(

2007-07-08T12:30:00.000+08:00

Whole world but me went to pubs/clubs already.

Just to be childish, I refused to be part of the majority until yesterday I couldn't take it and had to see what the fuss is all about.

Ok ok only la. Thought how fun.

Fortunately the singing part was good.

Conclusion: I rather pub than club.

MUAHAHAHAHAH~

But I really cannot take the drinking part leh... sooooo eeeeeeks.

How they manage to drink 3 bottles of Heineken down ah?! One bottle is enough to kill me lor.

I haven't been drinking much since then.. hmmm.. that was like 2years back?

So silly.. but still worth reminiscing.

Nonoo.. I'm over it already lah.

Kay, no pick-chahs now. Got to wait till my lappy is back.

BYE BYE.

Eh wait.. the short and rounddd part got so funny meh? why 某人 can laugh at it for so long ah?

Tsktsk.

2007-07-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

Gosh look at the date. quite pretty.

It's LiveEarth day..

I'm planning to be a green freak today with..

Green eye shadow..

Green nail polish..

Green T-shirt..

Green shrekie's ears..

I'm kidding lah.

I don't want to look like shrek.(Even thought he's cute)

Damn, I just wore my green tee yesterday and the other one is shit. I don't wanna wear that leh.

Eee~ Cannot! MUST WEAR!

Aiyah.. decide again later.

Anyway, Admiralty Mac sucks like hell now. It's the same as KAP's one.

I don't likeeeeeee!!!!

Service so slow! Sooooo inefficient!

Nevermind. I Shall have KFC next time.

Muahahaha~

2007-07-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

I'm like.. super duper tire.. kinda good.

I hate myself being so fat! (suddenly I sound like a bimbo.. but hell... what to do when I'm short and rroounnndddddd.)

No more sweets, chocolates, rice, bread, potatoes, and noodles for me from tomorrow onwards.

I shall survive on water and lots of exercise? (I'll just die by then.)

No more snacks...

No more can drinks...

No more milk tea...

Maybe just one meal per day?! (No lah.. I'm kidding.)

But seriously I'm getting fucking FAT and I wanna cry.

T_T

Anyway, I can't believe I used to think walking to school sucks.

Taking MRT rides PLUS BUS rides sucks like a billion times more. bus rides are okay. mrt rides are okay. BOTH TOGETHER IS NOT OKAY!!

I have to do this for the next 3 years of my life.

*cries 700 buckets of tears*

Seriously I'm beginning to miss the walking days.

The best way to get through life, in my opinion, is to not expect anything.

Expectations leave you angry and disappointed.

Let it go? hold on? let it go? hold on?

Kay lah. kinda tired, will probably put up some pictures tomorrow.

keep well people!

2007-07-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

Can someone just do me a favour and kill me?

Sometimes ah... life really really really sucks so bad you wonder why you even bother trying.

And yeah... joanna is not in the mood for entertaining entries. don't even want to complain about stupid people, which is ultimately rare.

I think its karma. I'm always complaining about people who do nothing but feel sad all day and about people who cry too much.

And now I'm upset. see.... you shouldn't make fun of people sometimes.

I just feel like moping and crying. very unlike me, I know. but this only proves one thing.

That I am also human. people tend to forget that.

=(

I'm so sad.

Will come back with a happier entry when I'm feeling better. wont be long. but for now, just let me sink into my own world and be alone.

And no.. I didn't draw that.

Fuck.. my gastric is killing me.

did you....

2007-07-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

Watch this...

It will only take up 43 seconds of your life.

I don't know why but I just can't stop laughing.

After watching, can one of you rich people buy me one ^_^ pretty please?

I like it so much!! So irritating!!

Face cramp, face cramp.

Ahhh... the silly little things that amuse me.

=D

2007-06-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

我曾认真试爱着一个人
他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生
他只是给我一个吻
快乐我哭是因为你的手
曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手
找不到你说的以后
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后
像坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐我哭是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
有好的笑容陪着我

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^%!@&^%!^&%@!!@^%!!

I don't know how to use My Multiply.. arrghs.

WHO KNOWS HOW TO USE IT?!!!

T_T

LIM TIANTIAN COME BACK NOW FROM MSIA AND TEACH ME LEH!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-30T14:29:00.001+08:00

Some overdue pictures. actually just a few of it. heh. Lazy, tired, busy.

Kay, here we go...

No more =D

I feel like rearranging someones face.

I guess you are not really a good person if you have to constantly remind yourself to be one.

Oh man, I'm so hungry.

2007-06-29T02:02:00.001+08:00

我盯着天空
像傻瓜听风吼
云一样滚动
过了几年了

从那个雨天
到蓝色天空
从寂寞到自由
原来世界早已不同

i believe i believe
那女孩是真的爱我
i believe i believe
眼泪不再凝固的左手
i believe i believe
有某一些痛我们都懂
虽然在雨天的时候

记忆它老是狠狠咬着我耳朵
我看到未来的结果
那女孩他的温柔
是我的感动 i believe

2007-06-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

Frequent and bad panic attacksssssss. Horrible.

I can't sleep at all. Shivering. I tried so hard to control my breathing. I felt like crying but I couldn't.

It stopped for a short while and comes again.

Nothing could help. Especially in the middle of the night.

How long can this kind of life last? I wish the end would come soon. I want to be happy.

I don't want to trouble anybody.

=(

=(

=(

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2007-06-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

When you have nothing to do, you chat with your friend on msn.

And you laugh about your friends favourite cartoon not being heard before.

Then you talk about all your favourite cartoon when you are young.

Then you talk.. and you talk and you talk some more.

Then you wait and prepare to go to hell.

I love the cartoon PINKY AND THE BRAIN.

I think I will find some day to dig the cartoon out and watch again... so funny. pinky is so skinny and stupid! I like =X

I like THE MAGIC SCHOOLBUS too. maybe because I'm a science person and not a maths person.

Benny likes ULTRAMAN.

Tiantian likes LA PI XIAO XIN.

Jasmine likes PINK RANGER.

Chenhaw likes TOTODILE.

Tina likes POWER RANGER.

I think BANANA IN PYJAMAS is nice too.

So what's your favourite cartoon? or maybe the cartoon you hate most.. if you don't mind getting stoned.

2007-06-27T15:33:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning saying "I SHALL BE NICE TODAY."

Now I know I can't.

Guys are the same equal ones under that layer of hair, clothes, shoes, skin and fats.

No matter how tall, short, fat, thin they are.

No matter they dress in what kind of style.

No matter how long how short their hair is.

No matter how fair how tan they are.

No matter they are the serious type or nonsense type.

No matter what is their educational level.

No matter what is their age.

No matter... No matter...

They are the same ---> Horny bastards with no respect to females.

Guys.....eat shit and die.. I prefer bi and gays.

Whooooops, have I just offended all the guys reading my blog?

Hokay, forget about the above part then.

That aside, why do guys like to sweet talk sooooooo much to a girl when the girl isn't their gf at all???!!!!

WHY?! TELL ME LAH!

Is it becoz they assume that ALL girls like sweet talking? Or is it they have been taking in chocolates and mentos accompanied with a cup of milk tea with extra extra sugars when they are talking or what??

Eeeeyyyeeerrrrr~~ I DON'T LIKE... ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE NOT MY BF AT ALL!! EEEEEEEKS!!

I won't mind if it's my bf who is sweet talking to me BUT sad to say, you are just a FRIEND that I barely know for a week. So please don't try to sweet talk with me. DON'T!

You can go and sweet talks with any other girls for all you like but definitely NOT me.

It's not sweet at all but ultimately DISGUSTING.

I don't even feel like talking to you anymore.

2007-06-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

Those who read my blog MUST watch this show - 换换爱!!!

Watch ok? watch ok?!!

I don't care ah.

Really super duper ultra nice.. so everyone MUST WATCH!!!

2007-06-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

Quite funny.

2007-06-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

I'm not always pissed lah.

I just find life sucky.. I think I mentioned before that I'm not totally cynical. maybe more skeptical.

I tend to doubt. when someone is good to me, I'll start questioning. when someone offers to help, I'll wonder if there really isn't any ulterior motive like what he/she claims.

I don't know how many of you are positive about life and how many actually hate your lives. but my main point is... to me, sometimes life sucks real bad and when you hear me say that, don't try to convince me otherwise. DON'T(at least not at this point of my life)

why?

( i think most people will know what my next line is. )

because it's fucking iiiirrrrrriiiiiiittttaaaaaattttiiiiinnnnngggg.

If you think life is all colourful, and that everyone should be happy and wear yellow
sunshine underwear, go ahead.

But don't try to convince me that I'm wrong about life, that I shouldn't be so pessimistic, that I should be more trusting blah blah blah.

I have my reasons for being unhappy.

I definitely have good moments in my life. just that generally I find that life sucks. probably because of certain experiences I've had... or incidents that make me think this way.

*for those who ask me why I seem pissed in every entry, no no I'm not pissed in this one in case you can't tell.

Anyway, happy belated birthday to NPY~ (pictures can be found at her blog ^_^)

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joannaa. says:
i saying xiao xin pi gu sexy right
joannaa. says:
ok lah . at least mroe sexy than urs =D
- wεіdoиg™☺ says:
more sexy lor
- wεіdoиg™☺ says:
mine is muscular one
- wεіdoиg™☺ says:
LMAO

WHERE GOT PEOPLE PI GU MUSCULAR ONE??!! AHAHAHAHAHAHH!!

why that game...

2007-06-21T16:17:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to TINAAAA
Happy birthday to youuu.. youuu... yoooouuuuu ^_^

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Thought I would be more excited than this.

Was expecting my throat to be bubbling with joy.

But you know, some stuffs out there just stopped half of it.

Was going through some gallery and I saw tan choo choo and choo choo tan pictures.

Was wondering if tan choo choo and choo choo tan is fond with one another, the actions.. just too much like a couple lah.

Eh.. not like I really care if tan choo choo like choo choo tan or choo choo tan like tan choo choo.

I'm not really close to them by the way.

But those pictures just makes you go eeeeeeee-ing non-stop.

Maybe for me only.

Question.

You see your friend's gf (also your friend) on the streets, hugging another guy (coincidentally your friend too!)

WHAT DO YOU DO??

a. pretend to be blind
b. drop hints to the friend who has been cheated on
c. mind your own business
d. lose sleep because you don't wish to be kpo yet can't keep your poor poor friend in the dark.
e. kill all 3 friends and pretend nothing happened.
f. expose her!! since she wants to cheat, she should bear the consequences.

I wish to lose my memory.

Now people will go, but tan choo choo don't have a bf what.

So?

Does that makes me less a sinner if I go around hugging guys and say.. but I don't have a bf what.

Eeeyerrr... cannot take it leh.

Lucky it's only the pictures I saw.

I won't want to see them face to face.

EEEKS!

Imagine if they are suddenly offically an item.

So straaaaannngeeeee.

I mean we were all good friends, and suddenly you see them getting intimate and all.

I'm not used to it!!

Eeeeks!!! help me somebody!!!

Hokay, it's 5pm.

I'm gone.

2007-06-20T03:21:00.000+08:00

I have real serious sleeping problems.

This doesn't happen once or twice a year like before exams. it's throughout the year.

no, years.

I counted sheep.
I switched on the aircon.
I switched it off.
I watched tv.
I exercised.
I played games.
I blasted music.

Nothing helped then. nothing will now.

And when I finally fall asleep, I get rudely woken up by stupid dreams.

Like.... whhhhaaaaatttt?

It's 3.30am now and you know what? I'm hungry.

Ciaoz.

Howwwwww~ just how can I switch my clock back by monday????!!!

2007-06-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

I feel like doing this now.

How?

Just how do you spend so much fucking time with people you can't stand?

Monsters who suck the fun out of everything and cause your brain cells to deplete on their own.

They make you feel like dying.

You know, I have already reached a point where nothing impresses me much anymore.

So don't try to.

These people only appear desperate, which is ultimately pathetic.

Pure disgust ripples through me every time I even think about this.

Give me a fucking break.

I can't even find a normal sane person to talk to.

I know a huge part of the problem lies with me lah coz everything irritates me now... okay... I'm trying to work on it.

But I can't even stand being around people now.

Everywhere I look, shitty people exist. and they're the ones who have it so fucking easy.

I think one of my main problems is that I don't know what the hell to do with myself half the time.

Sometimes I think I need to change. for the better.

Change requires willpower and discipline... change never comes easy. And that scares the shit out of me.

Because often, I can't stand myself.

I'm okay most days I guess but at the same time I feel like a living dead. you know, looking alive but nothing's going on inside.

fuck. this is getting so irritating.

2007-06-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

RP looks 100x nicer than NP. T_T

Duck walk. AHHAHAAH!

The back, the back!!

Again~

Still not enough.

Still there.. HAHAHA!

SHE TIP TOE ONE LOR!!!

okay, I'm short =(

She wanted me to upload this.

This is getting so insane.

2007-06-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

Promise some people an entry full of pick-chahs and very VERY very little words but I can't stand not talking.

Anyway, X told me about Y's stuffs yesterday.

I guess after so many donkey years I only see the surface of certain things. I never really once understand/know Y inside out before.

I really don't get what Y is thinking sometimes.

There's so many people around Y that care a 100x more than who Y is mixing with now. But why Y just don't seems to notice it.

To make the matter even worse, Y rather kick those who truly care aside and stay with those Y ASSUME they care.

Okay, maybe those people really care? as well.

BUT, when you are in trouble, who stood by you????

Who spent hours consoling you when all you could do was to complain about how sucky life is??

Who lost sleep because he felt angry and useless when he couldn't do anything to help you when you got upset???

Who talk senses into you when you did something wrong?

Who listen to you talk about your feelings and thoughts all this while?

HIM LOR!!!(Not X)

But when you got your so called new/good "friends", have you even ask how your old friend is doing?

nooooo.

And still got the cheek to tell him "but u will always be my best friend."

Best friend my foot lor!

Call me childish or whatever.

I just cannot take it.

So irritatinggggg!!

2007-06-16T14:23:00.000+08:00

Bloody hell.

Another person just found my blog.

!@#$%&

Now I have one less person to bitch about!!

Kay lah. not like I have anything to hide.

That aside, eeeeeyyyyeer I'm so choked with exhaustion.

Let me rest another day will die is it??

Siao.

How can?

Talking about "how can", how can a guy flirt with another girl when he has a gf sleeping at home ah?

How can he sweet talk with another girl online/sms-es when his gf is busy making him little surprise for their anniversary?

How can he date the girl out when he just have a small tiff with his gf?

How can he say "i love you" to the girl when he promised his gf that she will be his one and only?

Eeeeeyer.

How can how can??

And then you have people who aren't bothered by the fact that they are going out with people that are attached.

I don't know what it feels like to be the third party. I have never gotten involved with an attached guy and I will never want to.

So I really don't understand how some can wreck other people's families and relationships.

Why ah??

How can these people sleep at night??

How can they go around behaving like they haven't done anything wrong?

Tsk. humans are disgusting.

Fortunately I'm an angel. not human. muahahahaha.

tsk tsk tsk.... all you humans..... shame on you.

Hokay, I'm supposed to upload pictures of yesterday outing with my girlfriends.

But looking at the amount of pictures taken, I don't know how to upload it.

133pictures... How to upload like that?!

2007-06-14T17:02:00.000+08:00

Geri tagged me to play this game and since I bored now, I shall play it.

Rules of the game:
1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.
2) People who got tagged must write in their own blog and state the rules clearly.
3) At the end of the game, write down 5 lucky people to play this game and no tagbacks!

Here I go,
1. I love to sing and I sing everywhere I go. Even in the lift(sometimes) X=
2. I like to be alone when I'm super down.
3. I only share my feelings when I feel like sharing.
4. I love shopping even when I'm broke.
5. I drink bbt(especially mango sunrise) from NP almost everyday w/o fail.
6. I can't stay angry for more than 24hrs -___-
7. I smile and laugh about almost everything that people find me crazy.
8. I love to take pictures but I hate looking at it.
9. I cry super easily.
10. I love to sleep and I can sleep as long as 16hrs. HAHAHA!! Thats 2/3 day gone.

For those ppl who are feeling-very-fugging-bored:
1) Tiantian
2) Jasmine
3) Tina
4)
5)

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This picture looks super funny.

Not becoz it's editted but the angle I took make the BIG head seems to be like floating.

2007-06-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

下着雨
让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音

看着你
看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口
隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口
也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我
变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落
让满地鲜红
说你爱我
变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

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Kop from boss's blog. He wrote it himself, very meaningful lyrics.

你说会一直爱着我
我也说我不会放手
绕了一大圈好不容易
找到了那一天
最后的你还是说了再见

我再次回到了从前
一个人生活的感觉
寂寞在我身边一直徘徊不去
我逃避
我哭泣
我却淹没在伤痛心理

当时还记得你对我说
爱我是想要有永久
此刻我还是一个人了
没有了你也没有了什么

我笑着哭看着你的脸
害怕你这时候会不见
我试过拉着你的手
你能不能在回头
再说你还爱我
但着不是你要的结果

我笑着哭吻你的脸
只想要再爱你多一些
我不想看见你走
我害怕失去所有
我用尽全力
想把你抱紧
但你已慢慢地离去

我放开了你的手
感觉并不好受
但这样你才会比较好过
过你想要的生活
只要让你快乐
我也不去想其他的

他的存在导致我的难过
想期从前我给过的承诺
不让你再溜泪
没想到你得到的却是他的安慰
笑着哭的眼泪
我学会了怎么让你快乐一些..

2007-06-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

I feel very reflective about a lot of stuff.

I always think that I'm friendless but it's really cool to know that as long as you are willing to admit that you need help and actually ask for it... there will always be people who are more than happy to listen and give you the support you need.

To these special group of people who've been there for me, I'm really grateful that I've you guys/girls(Can I don't mention names? you all should know who you're right?)

Kay, you people have been constantly showering me with all your many many loves and concerns.

Some gone through the same grief and anger that I gone through.

Some knocked countless senses into me.

Some bitch with me.

But last but not least, all of you cared becoz you really care.

I'M REALLY FUCKING THANKFUL!!

Sometimes I don't know if friendship is about being 100% honest with each other.

When you're honest, all you wanted was to let your friend know that person that had hurt he/she is not worth feeling hurt over coz that person had did so many ugly things behind him/her back that he/she hasn't know of.

But when you keep a secret from your friend, all you wanted was not to hurt your friend further more coz you know when he/she know the ugly thing that person did, the hurt will only worsen but not ease.

Ah~ how irony.

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An open letter to you, my friend?

This is your life, not mine. Who am I to say what you did was wrong? I am after all just one of the many passers-by in your life.

The hurting part is that I trusted you. I had so damn fucking much faith in you.

I got tired of defending you sometimes, but at the end of the day, I thought it was all worth it, simply because you were so dear to me. I ignored what people said about you, because deep down, I knew I was right about you, or at least I thought I was right.

I thought.

You've done me no wrong. You don't owe me any explanations.

But I can't help feeling disappointed in you.

Major disappointment you say? thats an understatement.

I don't know what lies ahead either.

You didn't kill me. all you did was to crush me.

You meant so much to me.

I think you already know that things will never be the same again.

I can no longer bring myself to laugh with you about issues we used to enjoy laughing at together.

I can no longer bring myself to listen to you whine about your little episodes.

I can no longer bring myself to see you the way I used to.

I think you know me well enough to understand that its not about you being imperfect. I've never expected that. how could I when I'm far from being it myself?

I've never asked for anything.

All I wanted was a pleasant and memorable relationship with you.

Have you changed? or is that just a side of you I've never seen?

My only regret is that we never got the chance to go deeper into knowing each other more.

No matter what looms ahead, I hope you are happy. be happy.

that is the last wish I have for you.

2007-06-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

I'm like so happy and excited my hands are shaking like crazy.

you know you know, it may seem like I'm on perpetual PMS coz I'm such an emo person recently. but at times like this, I feel like I'm the LUCKIEST person on earth.

Isn't the world beautiful? joy to the world... la la la la

I don't think any of you know what I'm talking about, neither do I. muahahahhahahha.

But if you really care, just know that I'm happy today and be happy for me too ^_^

I always meet the nicest people in the world!!! all I do is bum around and whine. What did I do to deserve having people treat me nice??

I feel so llllooovvveeedddd.

Anyway I realize that whenever I don't ask for much, I end up with something bigger, nicer and more precious.

Seeeeee... you should never be greedy. when you have no expectations, anything good that comes your way will magnify and seem better.

Seriously I won't be surprise anymore if that something really happened. I.. no WE shall see.

2007-06-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

I got woken up by this dream that seems so real. For a second, I feel like I'm still living in my dream.

I thought I might just loose it and go back to my hole once again.

Those thoughts just keep running through my head.

Thinking too much can make one so tired!!!!! You think about this, think over that, think think think and end up you don't even know what you are thinking about.

Ah~ I'm tired.

Well, I guess I just have to end this quickly and jump to my bed to sleepppp.

Kay, Great! 1 more project done.

This feels good man! 1 down. 5 more to go.

Damn, 5 still sounds a lot.

Hokay, there's always things that brings you down and things that cheer you up again.

Heh. I found something. Now I'm happy again.

Muahahas~ ciaoz.

Hmmm~ did I said I saw him at there when I was on the train??!

On the train leh.. siao siao, I think my eyesight is getting better and better. Like that also can let me see -___-

There's actually a lot of pictures taken yesterday. Video as well. But you know.. I'm tired.

So.. Next time okay?

I will upload it next time. I will...

2007-06-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY SWEET(:

I'm sitting here, at home, methodically eating away at my bag of shaker fries and staring at the time on my computer screen.

Really very tired today.

What is it about lunch that makes people wanna sleep right afterwards?

Tsk~ Cannot take it leh.

I'm gonna skip class later.

Alright, _____ fell for a complete jerk.

Which girl hasn't anyways?

Turns out he was everything I thought he would be from the start. Worthless.

And some other stuff which I didn't feel would be good to tell her.

Kay, whatever.. she eventually found it out herself also.

Oh well and after knowing those acts, she still decides to forgive him and continue to trust him.

*bang wall, bang wall, bang wall!!!*

One word..

STUPID!
STUPID!
STUPID!

Ahhh~ I really cannot find any other nice and UN-offensive word to describe already.

If there's once, there's always a next time. Eh wait.. that guy already did it a million times before already.

*faint*

A leopard never changes it's spots. NEVER....

I tell you ah, possessive bfs.. I still can forgive.

abusive bfs, no room for negotiation.

LYING bfs? totally no time for them.

Walao think already also dulan.

Don't want to write already.

I'M OUT...to bbq.

2007-06-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

It's taking forever to type out this entry... I just feel compelled to update.

Crazy.

I have been living happily (though there's some downs) for the past few days.

Not sure why but I'm not complaining.

Probably a temporary mental shift in attitude.. which should stay for sometime coz it feels good.

Swinging between highs and lows is too tiring.

Kay, I've a bad boss.. real bad one.

He forced me to work in the middle of the night. Damn heartless, I know.

But he's just so nice most of the time that I find it hard to reject his offer. So being a nice person as well, I worked.

I'm being so angelic. muahahah.

Okay, stop it, stop it.

I'm feeling so sick ever since yesterday. I don't know what went wrong. Probably there's poison in the food.

*SCREAMMMMMS*

My stomach just feel so weird after eating that RAMILY(spell this way?) burger. I feel like vomiting but nothing come out. Then my stomach just get so pain out of a sudden, then ok, then pain again.

T_T

Anyway, tomorrow is WEDNESDAY. And it means..... muahaha, I'm not gonna tell you.

Beg me if you really want to know. But I doubt I'll tell you.

So don't bother trying.

I love WEDNESDAY... WEDNESDAY is my love.

Bye world.

2007-06-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

Spot the differences? =D

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Mac's new promoter.

Hokay, I want to sleep... I don't want to blog so nights folks.

2007-05-31T18:03:00.000+08:00

I think I'm going through some emotional re-awakening or something. Suddenly I think I deserve to be truly happy. Like HUUUHHH what took me so long to realize that.

Anyway I always tell myself if I think I'm happy, then I am.

So nonsense.

But I'm so easy to please it's almost disgusting.

Going for shopping with pocket full of bling bling.

Making people smile ^_^

Knowing everyone I care about is safe and happy makes me feel to.

Having stupid and pointless conversations.

When the lecturer don't teach.

Singing KTV and movie-ing.

Being with people that make me laugh.

When I'm at home and it's raining outside. I love seeing the rain come down and the puddles form. Knowing that I'm warm and dry inside and then try to spot the ugly umbrellas that people carry. Some really very ugly lor.

Wandering around at night.. looking at the clouds and stars.. the shiny streets and illuminated buildings.. Stars are my love can.

Going to beaches.. feeling the wind... listening to the gentle waves crashing.

Being alone at home knowing that no one will disturb me.

How I feel after having a nice shower.

Cute little doggys that look so adorable that you almost feel like kidnapping it.

Seeing how dumb people can get.

Getting to eat my favourite kinder breuno chocolate makes me happy.

Bubbles!! lots of them. blowing bubbles makes me happy like siao.

Hearing the principal saying assembly is for upper secondary only and then wait to hear a bunch of people holler "WAAAAAAA LAUUUUUUUUUUU". I'm not sure how happy I am about that, but it makes me laugh.

Having classmates that makes fun of teachers. So evil but very funny.

Days like today when it's holiday. Pure happiness.

Okay, I think I'm getting addicted to this happy happy thingy. I'll do it again some day.

I'm out.

2007-05-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

Life is full of unknown. Just when you think it is a dead end, a light shine out.

Life is full of disappointment. Some people are good to look at but with no intellect. Worse, some talks with their dick instead of their brains.

I might be loud, behave like a kid sometimes... but... I still do carry my brain around. I'm not dumb to the extend that I only see from the surface. I analyze situations, people's speech. I observe.

Whatever it is... only very few people truly knows me. I can be fun to hang out with, but if ever, you accuse me of something, I would go all the way.

Maybe it's becoz I'm still pretty traumatize by what happened in the past. I get really irritated when I'm wrongly accused.

and when I'm irritated, that's it.

I won't even bother to explain or clear things up. I find it pointless to do so. Why? Becoz even if I really explain myself, will anyone believe? The answer is NO. That's why I choose to keep my mouth shut except for ranting a few entries.

Anyway, someone just used a new theory to explain my nick.

So interesting.

He explained self compulsion in this way - "It's like you don't want to shit but the shit just want to come out."

Interesting huh?

2007-05-29T02:24:00.000+08:00

Yes... there's only one word that I wish, I can and I want to shout non-stop until I calm myself down... FUCK!

I type a really nice post and wanted to sleep coz it's fucking 2am already. But I just read something that super PISSED ME OFF so I deleted my previous post.

I swear I never get so angry for like a gazillion years already. All I could say after seeing was FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK!

Whoever it is that spam the blog can jolly well go fuck the hell off!!

And whoever that spam the blog that is so fucking JEALOUS about them can go BANG THE WALL FOR ALL SHE LIKE.

Aww... Just fuck it.

Now the sight of everything just pissed me off super badly.

Oh.. for people that really have to know, the pictureS that I said should be PICTURE without the "s" coz there's only ONE picture that I saw that make me go gila. Don't ask me why I put the "s" coz I don't do spelling check or whatever shit.

And for the bad things we did, it has basically NOTHING.. I repeat NOTHING to do with BLOGS AND PEOPLE. So get it now?

I don't do stupid things! And I don't understand why must I explain myself.

I bloody hell did nothing wrong ok!

Kay, I know I'm not a nice person and I don't talk properly when I'm super pissed off but I don't care.

I JUST DON'T LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE ACCUSE ME OR MY FRIENDS OVER SOMETHING WE NEVER DO!

121.6.216.165 <--- WHOEVER THIS PERSON IS IT THAT GO AROUND USING OTHER PEOPLE'S NAME CAN GO FUCK FUCK FUCK OFF! NO NAME TO USE THEN DON'T TAG! DON'T GO AROUND HOPPING AT PEOPLE'S BLOG TO REPLY OTHER'S TAG. IT'S NOT FUNNY AT ALL AND IT ONLY PROVES TO PEOPLE HOW CHILDISH YOU ARE.

FUCKKKK OFFFF!

2007-05-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

My jaw just drop each time I click those site.

Help me~

1 more time and I'm sure I will have no more jaw.

*breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out*

I'm surprised, shocked, amused, startled, stunned by what I saw. I can't believe my eyes when I saw those pictures. Those things actually happened.

OH MY GODDD!! SEE NO EVIL!

Oh.. and I just did something really bad with tiantian.

I feel so evil and bad now.

How ah~

2007-05-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

I am tire... very tired.

I am still learning to love myself more. I don't want to breakdown again.

I want to live in peace and alone.

I may not be happy now. but i'll die trying.

I've already reached the point whereby I can use one word to describe what I see, think and feel already.

Oh.. and maybe "speechless" is the word?

Sigh.

2007-05-26T01:12:00.000+08:00

I'm so nice, you know. Despite feeling lousy and everything, I still take time out to counsel people!!!!!

Simply becoz some kind souls have been really patient and encouraging to me... I wish to spread the kindness and concern too.

So please flood me with your problems ^_^

We can share stories.. and cry together.. and know that we are not alone.

=D

My sexy model.

Isn't this cuteeeee???

Okay~ I'm lazy to continue with the uploading already.

Time to sleep.

2007-05-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored !

I'm soo bored till...

This happened... *scary*

Hokay, I haven read my notes. I'm so gonna fail CD test tomorrow.

HA LEH LUH YA~ Bless me people.

2007-05-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

I was told that to resolve whatever unhappiness I feel inside, I need to first identify the problem. When I'm ready, I talk about it. And by talking, I'd probably have come to terms with it and then what's left is to HEEAAALLLL.

I'm at the last stage already if you must know. Probably the most painful stage coz you are already calm, rational and so clear about what makes you upset.

I wake up every morning and tell myself:

Joanna, cherish yourself.
Treat yourself well.
Respect yourself and respect those who really care and love you.

I don't get hypnotised after that and feel as though the morning is beautiful lah. The morning is still gloomy.. but at least I won't have the tendency to hurt myself or do anything silly.

Sometimes... I think about this.. then think about that.. then next day think again.. after a while I just don't know what I have been thinking.

I'm crazy.

I admit I still don't have the courage to look at that someone when I see that someone in school. What I will do is most probably just steal a quick peep and get out of that place asap.

Noo.. I'm not some kind of peeping tom that peeps at people. It's just that I don't want to recognise the wrong person and make myself panic over nothing.

Kay, it's not that I'm afraid of seeing him or him seeing me kind of thing. It's just that the feeling isn't right.

Coz we're neither friends nor strangers now. You can't possibly ask me to pretend that I completely don't know that person and just walk off coz I know that person for a hell long time and it makes it almost impossible to treat that person as though he's transparent or something.

But at the same time you can't ask me to walk up to him and say a simple "Hi" coz we basically don't talk anymore.

Ah~ like damn stupid isn't it.

I'm pretty impress with people that says "If she/he is happy with his/her life now, I'll be happy for him/her." Okay, rephrase.. I only look up to those that say and able to do it.

I know of a huge number of people that say it but never do it. Meaning they still complain and complain and complain when they know their ex are happy without them..

Hokay, I'm not saying these people have no rights to complain or whatsoever. It's their life and they have the rights but isn't it funny when you know you won't be able to fulfil it but still choose to say it. I mean why bother making yourself contradict in this way.

I used to contradict myself but I learn from it coz I know for me.. it's never possible to see him happy and be happy for him.

The sentences just don't sound right to me. If he's so happy now without me doesn't it make it sounds like I'm making him sad all this while? *shrugs*

Kay, I'm selfish and I know that. But seriously, I'll rather choose to know he's not happy or jolly well don't let me know he's happy coz I know I'll definitely make shits out of it.

Eh, sounds like what I'm doing now.

I think I sound very auntie. I'm not always like this okay.. must understand that i'm still in the healing process!! So still very emo momo.

Okay, I'm gone.

2007-05-22T01:02:00.000+08:00

I'm suffering from chronic boredom due to chronic poverty.

I'm so brokeeee.

I'm like so broke that I can just die.

purse so flat.

*CRY*

Hokay, What's with this "ANYTHING" and "WHATEVER" drink?

They say it's suppose to be the same drink but with different taste in each different can. Meaning you can be drinking the same "ANYTHING" drink as your friend but the taste in the two cans can be different.

Quite cool huh? Should give it a try someday.

Give me ANYTHING
I say ANYTHING!
I say ANYTHING!
@&#^*@&^#*&@^*@
Kay, Give me WHATEVER~

I like the ad. Very irritating. Nice.

I got no money =(

2007-05-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

Laoniang is so damn not happy now.

I'm off to bed.

BYE!

2007-05-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

EK say: Anyone interested in buying Walkman ear piece?

1 for $18
2 for $30
100 for $1500

2007-05-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

Why can't hairdressers understand what is to "trim a little little bit?"

When I always say A LITTLE, they end up chopping off A LOT. Now I know why my hair never grow super longggg before.

Well, if it really does grow to the desire length I wanted, I think it will be 50years later.

Kay, that's why I always hate having hair cuts. Always end up like this.

I got a funny friend.

Her name is WEIQI & she rocks~ aha!

2007-05-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

I got this sudden urge to dye my hair back to black.

Yes, BLACK! But I think I'll only get it done when my hair gets longer. Brown hair looks so common. I like black~ Haa.

Hokay, I need a hair cut. My hair look like some POM-POM which is out of shape now.

That's all.

IT'S GB TIME!

^_^

2007-05-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

Some people are just so so so ~~F-ing~~ KIAM PA and BO LIAO.

Don't ask me why!

Coz I seriously don't know what the heck their brain contain and think.

Tell me lah~ Do you people even go around continuously asking some other people about a certain someone information when you ALREADY have that informations?

NO RIGHT?!

Then why is there still people like this EXISTING?!

Please for goodness sake don't come and ASK ME WHEN YOU ALREADY KNOW! I'm not so free to entertain stupid questions and people like this.

Some what I get more pissed when I know you did it on purpose becoz it's about him.

Kay, BYE!

2007-05-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

Am I the one that hasn't been observing people around me well enough or they simply just changed so much that I completely don't know them.

AHHHHHHHHHHH~

2007-05-16T15:13:00.001+08:00

It will take me forever to type this entry coz I've too much to say.

Firstly, today IS a suay day.

We went to the library after lecture and as usual headed to the Media room to watch DVD. Syaz brought "Final destination 3" thus we watched that. Then out of a sudden there's this guy or rather GAY walked past the room and gave some stupid retarded jealous face and *poof* the librarian came.

SPOILER sia~

She goes..

"Show me the cover of your disc..
Show me your Student ID..
Take out the disc..
Why are you using the plug here for your laptop..
Why are there so many of you sitting here? To occupied spaces ah?
Why pluck the headphone out.."

And whatever..

She just keeping chanting away.

Hokay, she took our Student ID plus the disc and made us follow her. Then she photocopied it and started her CHANTING SESSION ~~again~~.

"You know ah, you all cannot bring your own disc you know?
What if we allow then everyone will start to bring their Dvds, Drama and everything to watch here.
This time I let you all off, the next time I'll have to confiscate your disc and issue you girls warning letters and blah blah blah..."

I wasn't really paying close attention to what's she talking, so I asked Sarah.

Then that librarian turn and look at me and started speaking in mandarin.

-______-

"HELLO~ AUNTIE! I KNOW ENGLISH OK!!"

Alright, after that we decided to pon IT class so we marked our attendance and leave.

BUT... wonderfully when Pam and I reached the bus-stop, Alina called me and said the teacher wants to check the attendance list = WE HAVE TO GO BACK TO CLASS.

ARGHHHS~

Of all days she don't check, I pon then she want to check.

Head back there and rotted for like 45min and the worse thing is..

SHE DIN EVEN CHECK THE ATTENDANCE lor.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!

Suay right!!

Oh well, I'm going mad.

5 Projects in hand now and I've started NONE! Notes/textbook all brand new and untouched.

How to pass like that????

*bang wall*

Super model no.1

Super model no.2

Super model no.3

lalala~~

sian already

^_^

Ok, probably this entry is not as long as I thought it will be.

And blogger decides to give me hell now. I can't continue to upload pictures..

CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN!

OHOH! Before I forget, ek has a PINK psp.

PINK!!

muahaha~

ciaoz.

2007-05-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

I'm too tired to blog now.

I'm just feeling super duper HAPPY today.

Thanks girls. You girls really made my day :D

Shall post some pictures tomorrow and head to my bed now.

BYEEE~

2007-05-15T02:31:00.000+08:00

I don't understand why I'm still sitting in front of my lappy now when I've to wake up at 7.15AM later..

I think I got serious sleeping disorder.

My eyes are still widely open like this... O.O!

I don't even feel the tiredness in me.

HOW~!

Someone knock me hard on my head so I can faint and sleep peacefully can?

Alright, so for like after a gazillion years I'm finally gonna meet my besties for movie and gossiping session in the evening.

Muahahah~

nights folks.

^_^

2007-05-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

I skip tutorial class today..

Not really skip coz I'm sick that's why I din turn up, but I don't intend to produce a MC tomorrow so still consider skip right?

What am I talking about?!!

Ah.. Whatever~

I'm feeling so bloody lousy..

I won't say I hate liars.

Because honestly I have hurt people with my lies too. people dearest to me.

Who hasn't?

Sometimes, it's not the lies that hurt you so much.

It's the person who lied.

I don't know what to do when I reach a point where I can't even stay angry. Just disappointed and sian.

Is it really true that you can trust absolutely no one?

2007-05-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

I thought I can be strong and let it go.

I can't.

Certain days can still trigger the sadness I have tried to hide using all my strength.

I'm tired.

No one can ever understand how much I missed him.

2007-05-11T11:08:00.000+08:00

I'm still shaking my legs at home when I'm supposed to be in class now.

Hokay, I actually woke up late today so might as well skip that lesson since I've got nice friend to mark my attendance. I'm bad.. ahah!

I DON'T WANT TO EAT PORKKK ALREADY!!~~

*faint*

AND.. HAPPY BDAY NDS! :DDD

2007-05-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

I wish I've a boyfriend that looks like Jin.

He can sing,
can dance,
can act,
and most importantly he's so damn handsome and cute!

Jin is my love~

I'm mad over KAT-TUN, that's bad.

KAT-TUNNNNN~

Hokay, I'm not a ah lian~

Which part of me looks like a ah lian to you people?! I actually got friends saying I'm gonna be a gangster teacher.

WTH!

AND I haven download gunbound to my lappy.. Tiantian is so gonna kill me already.

2007-05-10T12:57:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

I dropped my phone yesterday and now I drop it again.

I think my phone really hates me nowadays. If not why does it tries to commit suicide so often ):

Bad phone~!!

*YAWNS*

Shall get my butt off the chair now and head to school.

What a senseless post.

2007-05-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

I admit I was a little too work up that day, but seriously, I'm pissed off. And I feel like a piece of shit.

I woke up the next morning and tot back what I tot the previous night and the immediate tot I get was I must be ciaoz.

Must be PMS lah.. MUST BE LAH!!

Why do girls always have to face this period of time..

T_T

I collected my O'lvl Cert just now and some peoples keep suan-ing my English grade. NVM~ I'm a nice girl, I GIVE THEM SUAN.

Hokay, but please don't come suan-ing me after you see this entry. Your consideration is very much appreciated.

I'm really very tired today, I shall just go watch my tv, do some read up and SLEEP!

WEEE~ I can see cheeneh on my laptop already ^_^

"Artist" at work..

Mine is ugly ):

2007-05-08T01:14:00.001+08:00

What's even better than blogging at 1.14am when classes starts at 9am tomorrow?

Ya great, I just told myself not to click it and I did it again! HAHAHA!

THIS TIME I GET MYSELF EVEN MORE PISSED OFF!!

GREAT JOB AH!

Now I can't go to bed coz the moment I close my eyes I see those images!

NICE NICE, VERY NICEEEEEE!!!!!!!

So nice that I will get myself nightmare after that.

2007-05-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

I wonder if I'm behaving like some drama queen. I hope not. Coz I'm starting to get a little emo already.

Monday blue huh?

Not really. It's more about the things I see and hear about that makes me so BLUE.

At times, I wonder If I should mind mine own business and stop poking my nose into THEIR business. I mean everyone on earth know it's over already and I should get over it like how he freaking get over me right?!!!

But.. no buts, I just couldn't control myself.

I can't stop clicking on his blog, his friendster, her blog, another her blog and whatever links that I can think of that link to him thus now.. I get myself into all this shits.

It's making me feeling as thou I'm a stalker and a big time KPO.

I know how irritating things can get when you find this someone knowing everything you do, where you go, who you talk to and etc.

But If I can get over it like HOW YOU ARE NOW I won't be here ranting like a crazy woman.

So tell me, whose fault is it.

T_T

Hokay, I don't even want to do anything now :(

I just want to stay home and nua :(

I want to stay home and sleep and play my games and watch my show... and just nua :(

2007-05-06T16:04:00.000+08:00

Crunchyroll is so so so much better than Youtube.
Catch up with Bleach ep, finished watching My Girl Vcd and now I'm gonna start watching 海豚灣戀人 than 熱情仲夏.

OHOH! and maybe catching up with One piece ep also.

Did I ever said I'm sucha drama/anime addict?

Oh well, my notes/text is collecting dust on my table already.

HOWWWW~~

Yt asked me yesterday If I know this girl called Weiqi from ECH anot. He said Weiqi know me.

I didn't know I'm so popular. JUST KIDDING~~~

2007-05-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

EEEEEEEEYERRRR!!

Youtube is taking forever to load my anime and I forgot which episode did I last stop at for BLEACH already. Die lah, die lah.
Maybe I should try crunchyroll istead.

Anyway, Sarah is going a little out of her mind now. She's flooding my friendster like crazy. Haha!

2007-05-05T23:01:00.001+08:00

I'm dying of boredom already.

T_T

Just when I opened blogger to kill my boredom, I suddenly remember I've got this whole long list of show I wanna watch at Youtube.

So BYE-BYE!

They said time can cure everything and feelings fades as time go by.

TRUE MEHS?!!
qi guai.

2007-05-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY!!
JOANNA!! STUDY!!

Suddenly the word looks strange.. hmm....

Anyway, why din mum like give birth to a pretty me??!!
WHY?
So I can act like some bimbotic people also lah.
FUCK! Seriously pretty girls with ugly hearts should go and die.

Make me boil only.

Aiyah, I blog for tiantian to read.
I'm being so nice today.
STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~

2007-05-01T01:03:00.000+08:00

On days like this, I just feel like doing that.

GO AND DIE

GO EAT SHIT

GO AND DIE

GO EAT SHIT

GO AND DIE

GO EAT SHIT

GO AND DIE

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

Sigh...
I knew it long ago. Just that I choose to believe I was wrong.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I think I'm just in a crappy mood.
ismyliad.. SOMEONE SAVE ME PLEASE~!!

Anyway, people I don't think I'll blog everyday already so don't bother clicking this site unless you feel that you got super ultra nothing better to do.
I seriously cannot bring myself to blog everyday coz blogging about what I did everyday is totally meaningless to me and I'm not like people that can think up with this whole chain of topics to blog everyday so I shall just be a occasional blogger.
EH, EH, EH, EH?
It's better than nothing ok???!!
I mean who actually cares about how my day is or what I did on that day right?
So no point blogging it out when even I, myself don't even care.
It's like I did almost the same thing as what normal human will do everyday right??!!
I shit,
I eat,
I laugh,
I go out,
I crap,
I.. haiya, whatever.
Don't want write already.

2007-04-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

JOANNA is so freaking nice and good today.
Well, I always do. Haha.
I actually managed to drag myself out of bed before 11 and complete Ernest homework before going out.
SEE? I'm hardworking right?!
Went visiting my granddad and as usual head to Velocity since it's near. Walked around and I saw Flash & Splash selling PAUL FRANK stuffs!
Bling bling~ I need more blings~!!
T_T
I feel so broke and I feel like robbing the banks already.
Nah, just joking only.
Oh, I actually saw this bike that look so style to me.

Nice right? It's Emily the Strange bike OK?
Trained to Queenstown after that to look for my skates and I BOUGHT MY SKATES already!
Like finally?
Hokay, the skates actually coz a bomb but I don't need to pay for that bomb.
WAHAHAHA!
I'm evil.
Oh yah, I just realize I hasn't been watching my anime lately.
One piece, bleach and all my dramas series that I wanted to watch.
I'm like so busy nowadays with I don't know what also.
K ciaoz, I want to watch them already but before that I want to sleep.
BYEEEE~

2007-04-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

Supper is nice and it makes you fat.
I just finished my supper and I'm going fat fat fat, Haha.
Anyway, went to hospital to visit my granddad today, hope he'll get well soon =/
Went to Velocity awhile and bought some tees and mum bought me this Surfer girl bag that I'm super in love with. Yea~ Thanks mum thou she don't get to read it. Talked quite a lot with her today and she asked about him. Din told her much thou coz I don't want her to think he's a bad guy or whatever lah. She just keep telling me "There's still better guys out there and don't make yourselves miserable coz of one guy."
Seriously I don't think there's better guys out there coz guys are all the same~~ ZZZ! No offends lah, just my thinking for NOW only.
So rush to my cousin birthday after that and we're drop dead bored there that my cousin and me begin our cam-whoring session. It's good to have a person that super love to cam-whore like you coz you'll end up with tons of pic. Funny ones, ugly ones and of coz nice one lah!

This is taking forever to upload man.
I'm done and I'm lazy to carry on blogging already.
Ernest homework not done and I'm going out tomorrow again, CHAM LAH, CHAM LAH!
And and I love xiu ling's sunglasses can!

2007-04-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

You know how much I used to love raining days, like walking under the rain and believing it actually wash away all your unhappiness those kind of stuffs? (Maybe only silly people like me do that :x)
Ok, but believe it or not I'm starting to hate raining days now.
First, it makes you wet. Next you can't walk under the rain coz of all your books and stuffs especially with laptops around! Then, it makes you more depressed.
-____-"
But the temperature still feels good and seeing rain drops still look cool.
Nvm, I'm a weird person.
Anyway, I'm at the library using someone else laptop coz it's raining and I can't get home. SEE? RAINING DAYS! I actually forget to bring my umbrella and my phone batt is going soooo low, wth.
I'm dying of boredom already.
OHOH~ I wanna go buy my cap later and maybe ask jas out to skate in the night if possible.
YEA~ SKATESS!!
Ciaoz.

2007-04-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

I'm so full now. ^_^
Haha.
Anyway, school's fun today. Miss Chong is totally funny and the class is totally noisy lah. We talked about the differences between Poly life and Sec school life and we came up with this huge chucks of rubbish.
Some of it like, need to climb the stupid slope, no need to ask teacher whether we can go to the washroom, no national anthem, no need 2 by 2 and blah blah blah.
Then Miss Chong talked about this student of her's in poly.
It goes like..
Student A: *Raise hand* Miss Chong can I go to the washroom?
Miss Chong: NO?
Student A: Orh, continue to sit there.
Miss Chong: I tot you said you wanna go to the washroom? Go lah.
Student A: Really can go ah?
Miss Chong: Ya~ gogogo.
Student A: Miss Chong, toilet pass?
Miss Chong: *confused look* what is toilet pass?
HAHA! Not really funny here but the way Miss Chong said it's like so damn funny and the class can't stop laughing at all.
After class meet up with jas then went to find desheng then jus and mengzhen and head for in-line skating.
There's like more than 180 over people joining in-line skate and the court is like not very big?
Those skaters is like so pro can? The way they skate and do those move totally makes me go *WOOOW*!
I wanna train already lah, I'm so noob there lor!
Make me so bu shuang >:[
Homework not done and I'm drop dead tired already.
I'm gone.

2007-04-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

To blog everyday before 12am is like wanting my life.
I just got home from skating and I'm going to eat my DINNER now.
Did I just said dinner?
Aiya.. HUNGRY HUNGRY!
Shall update when I finish my dinner.
IN-LINE SKATE TOTALLY ROCKKS MY SOCKS! :DDDD

2007-04-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

It isn't easy to act as if I see nothing, hear nothing and know nothing. I'm not really blind or deaf, you see.
No I wasn't sad or emo-ing.
Ek said: boat until bridge will go straight.
=/

2007-04-25T17:44:00.000+08:00

Classes shouldn't start at 8.30am lah, it's making me abhorring Wednesday already.
Late for 5mins and I'm marked late.
t(-.-)t
All thanks the stupid hill and the stupid ulu location of Np that makes me late, why not just say I'm lazy to wake up early. Haha, and the late queen Jolene is on time today. *surprise look*
Lecture class is like hypnotizing me. I'm so freaking sleepy already and the air-con there makes me feel even more like sleeping.
Anyway, got posted to 688A for the attachment thingy but I seriously got no clue where is 688. It's supposed to be near my house but I don't remember having blocks that start with 68.. near my house leh.
Weird.
Someone please tell me where the hell is that.
-____-"
After lecture we head to Timah and had Prata for lunch and head back to Np again. Went to collect our EZ-Link card and was late for another class.
No one really wanna attend that IT class anyway. And the teacher is like talking to the wall coz no one really listen to what she's saying.
Shan went for the NRA thing and ask if I wanna tag along since I wanted to join NRA but...haiya I don't like audition even thou I really feel like learning hip-hop now.
T_T
OH!! AND AND DESMOND IS SO FREAKING HAO-LIAN! He asked me to call him just to tell me ADRIANO is in his lecture class. He wanna make me jealous lah.
MY ADRIANO!!!
I wanna go NYP-ECC already!
>:[
Cwp time~

2007-04-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired now already.
Reach home super late coz SOME people play dota, dota, dota until stuck at Np don't want leave.
ZZZ!
Corina's lesson was quite ok lah except that it starts so early that I'm only half awake in class. Had lunch with some DO1 & DO2 people at SIM canteen then some of them left and as usual left Juian they all so we spend our "wonderful" 4hrs break together.
Walk around the stupid campus and landed up in the library. Went to the Board Game Room and we played Taboo. Peiling is so expert at that game and she seriously make us look like some mad people in there coz we were like laughing so loudly like no body's business.
Head for S&W class and cheer lead was cancel.
Hence, class ended at 3plus instead of 5.
NICE!
But the damn teacher from another sports told us to run 2 rounds around the track before telling us the session was cancel.
How ass can that be.
Anyway, it's been donkey years since I run on the track and long distances run really sucks for me.
T_T
Ok~ and Juian loves to call me NEW YORK now.
Haha.

2007-04-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

Now I'm supposed to act blind or act like I'm some complete idiot that know nuts about it? OH NONO~ I didn't see anything and I won't utter a single word about it.
Crazy.
I think I'm going to be suffering from depression if I continue to act like this. I start to curse and swear out of a sudden or just simply hide at a corner and cry for nothing.
This is getting so insane.
I don't know if this is what depression is all about. Maybe not so serious but you know it's like like having this black cloud hovering over you. It obscures everything in your mind.
And it's not something that's easily shaken off. At least not by simply assuring yourself that tomorrow will be better.
Coz being the cynic, I've never thought tomorrow will be better.
To me, SAD = SING/SLEEP.
Bad bad equation.
That's why I'm always landed up being either penniless or being a pig.
Who cares anyway.
So school's so short today. Nth much just that I've tons of homework to be completed by next week and I'm getting so lazy to even touch it already.
And Bus 52 is the slowest bus I've ever wait for at NP. I saw 4 or 5 bus 74 went by and I see non 52. That's how bad it is lah.
And you hear people shouting "YES" when bus 52 come. -______-" anyway, bus rides really make me feel like sleeping which I don't know why that's why I always prefer trains.
Head to AMK with jas after class. She accompanied me to buy my FBT shorts and we went to KTV.
One thing that we find weird about AMK's KBOX is that they like to recommand us Shirley Temple Which I don't think it's nice. Maybe not as nice as Party World's one. And the stuffs there are extremely "friendly".
Shall not elaborate it.
I got fucking 4hours long break tomorrow that I hasn't plan about what to do. Shall wait for my crazy classmate to plan.
Well, Sports&Wellness is going to kill me tomorrow.
AND I GOT SOMEONE TO BET WITH ME ABOUT BLOGGING EVERYDAY.
I shall see whose blog will last the longest with daily post.
:D

2007-04-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

For the number 123456789 times I feel like whacking my bloody hell internet connection. Always DC, DC, DC, DC, CANNOT FIND SERVER, CANNOT FIND SERVER!
I'm fucking pissed off now already. >:[
Met up with kh today and went to err.. I don't know how to spell. Accompany him to cut his hair that like no different after cutting then went to buy Chocolate waffles and Chesse waffles to eat. Ok I know I'm greedy that's why I got my lesson that is wasted my bling bling for nothing!!
Yaya~ I ate one and throw the other away lah.
-____-"
Went to meet Des at the first cabin and head to town to meet up with damien then wesley. Basically we just walk around and di-siao each other.
Then wesley start to complain he waste 2bucks plus just to come and go home :x
Wanted to catch a movie but... NO TIME CUM NO CINEMA CUM it's a M18 show.
I don't know where the hell the cinema at Suntec gone to.
I think I'm becoming mountain tortoise already.
T-T
So train back and went to Cwp. Ate LJS and took 912 back with des. He went to look for ek I think and I'm home.
Chatting with Alina and di-siaoing damien now on msn.
Okok, I need to go check on the stupid MEL already.
Oh! now des and kh is making me so feel like going to NYP already. Somebody please tell me something good about NP~
I want NYP!!!!! Adriano is there!!! ):

2007-04-22T01:11:00.000+08:00

Brought this drama long ago but didn't open it. Decided to watch it today and so far I can say it's nice(:
The guys acting in it are all so cute and handsome lor :x So I kept watching and watching all the way from 5 till 12 that I've forgotten all about my LUO ZHI XIANG.
I'm sad. I want my Xiaozhu!
Nvm, I go Youtube find! >:[
T-T
Now that the roles have changed ):

2007-04-21T03:39:00.000+08:00

I dreamt of him last night and suddenly jump out of bed. :/
Head for class early this morning and I wasn't late :DDD
Saw Shan at the bus-stop and walked in together, went to canteen1 to get our pancakes for breakfast and went for class.
First class was a boring one and I freaking cut my fingers during lesson. Ass!
Well, the Play&motor skill class is totally FUN like hell. We just have to go there to play and I really mean play. :DD

see how happy those "kids" were? :x
And and, Belinda is a super nice teacher so I'm like so in love with my class and course already. End class at 1 today so met up with jh and went to Bukit Timah Plaza. Had Pizza Hut for lunch and the services there is like shit. -_____-" ok nvm, I didn't really want to eat that also. So like after eating walked back to campus with him and he acc me wait for 61. Back home and jas ask me wanna go make our hair today anot. So meet her up at some place at Bukit panjang which I forgot where.
Uhmms.. then went to Kelly's mum shop? Highlighted my hair but like not much different also. After that went back to Cwp and catch the movie 200pounds beauty with ek, des, wd, jas and wesley. The movie is SUPER DUPER NICE and I teared during the movie.
T-T
It's touching ok. Hilarious also. I think Wesley laugh the loudest there :x It's a nice movie that I still feel like watching it the second time. ^-^
After movie-ing walk to 515 and they had their supper and as usual walked jas home first and they walked me home after that. HAHA! Thanks guys. I know someone will complain legs tired again. :x So while walking they keep mentioning ERHEM's name and I really don't want to think much about it also but..... Haiya nvm.
Ohoh! and juian keep saying I look like a 933 Dj which I don't know who the hell is that. I told her I'll go check it out but I'm like so tired now already so probably check tomorrow or what provided I remember.
Haha.
Nights peeps(:

2007-04-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm back to using blogger :DDD
Thanks to tian&jas for telling me this sua ku how to change back to template instead of using layout.
So school start late today and I'm still late for class. Err, not very late actually but Alina and guys were like bombing my phone when i'm at the lift already. They keep sending : "where are you, everyone here already." obviously i'm the last to enter the class and nothing happen. =x Since it's the first week of the school lah. Had some simple English test and I must say MY ENGLISH REALLY CMI! Okok, I know, I know. My English sucks right from the start and the only thing I read is like newspaper? -____-" Oh! and I don't read very often also. So you should know where I stand right. =x
After class went to meet up with jas and desheng. Had lunch? at canteen 1 and search for the stupid Lt73.
Listened to the crappy NDP07 thingy and head to the airport to fetch my bro.
yeah, he's back from aust already but leaving again after 3weeks i think -___-"
Someone is scolding me over the phone again already so cut short.
I'm not in a good mood today and I'm so gonna start to detest them already. t(-.-t)
BB! >:[
OHOH! and i've got some kind soul to deliver bread for me to eat when i'm late for class.